I'm alive & kiciking !

After soo long.... !

Actually I forgot about the existence of this blog...
HAHAHA... faktor usia maybe?

Yeah...
what's new?

WORK
Still in the same office.. It has been roughly about 3 years now.. Alhamdulillah...

WEIGHT
this is ridiculous ! I never thought that I can be this fat ! I'm now 60kg ! Can you believe it? Urghhh -__- I hate my self. the most obvious part is my bulgy tummy ! It looks like I'm pregnant. Nevertheless I'm still not in the mood to control my food intake and exercise. hmmm

WEDDING
Finally. I can talk about wedding ! Alhamdulillah.. I have someone now... I don't know what to call him. Is he my boyfriend? Literally. HAHAHA. We have been discussing about marriage for quite some time. But then I still haven't told my mom. while he already did that. HEHE.. I just pray that he is really my jodoh.. InsyaAllah...

Okay that's all for now. Laters, baby !

4 months ago

It was 4 months ago since my last update ! I'm still alive and kicking !

random updates.

march,april,may - during this months I was so happy. I would say that I'm in love. keep on texting him 24/7. Dalam hati ada taman. We met in the office once in a while to exchange food. he called me sayang, dear, cinta etc. I was so over the moon !

june - I knew the truth. He just using me. He still wants that girl. So June is totally not a good month. I was crying... heartbroken !

and now july is the recovering phase. Im moving on. gotta find new fling !

p dot s : weight has been skyrocketing to almost 58kg now ! what a monster I am T__T

result

remember this entry? today the result is out. as expected. I failed. So? I feel so upset and useless. Furthermore most of the candidates pass! T___T

I just wanna go invincible at the moment. I don't want to talk to anybody. I'm super duper down... sob sob ;(

latest about my so called love life

It's been a while.. Nothing much. I'm confuse right now. How can man loves a woman after a few days met? Lemme share what had happened actually.

I met this guy, last week. I would say that he is actually my office mate as we are working in the same building. But we didn't know each other before. Since we are in the same group (during 5 days course) we got hooked ! Oh btw this particular man, have being rejected by a woman lastweek. Thus he is not in the good condition. And now I'm the one who listen to all his ramblings, etc. He kept miscalled & texted me every now and then. I'm a single lady, that is why I can 'layan' him. The problem is now, I'm scared that I would fall to him. I don't want to. arghhh. life is so complicated ! end.

update !

hye peeps !

it's been a while...

Dunno what to update, what to share as life still the same. nothing change, so far.

• i'm still single !

• still figure out about career changing.
  

• weight have been reduce a bit. But it's still long way to go ! another 4 kg's to shed ;)

other than that. Nothing. Okay that's all. Better get going ! Toodles !

Apa nak jadi?

I don't know what has gotten into me??
This week I failed to perform my solat 5 times a day ! I hate myself ! I failed to be a good muslim. I regret but I can't help it. :((

interview?

early this year I accepted the offer from *** as a contract officer in this Ministry. I was so happy and grateful for being given this opportunity. And coming this 5/1 I have interview to attend to change my post from contract to permanent. I'm so freaking nervous! I don't know why. Dah lama tak attend interview makes me restless. Nak baca apa ni? What to expect? aaaahhhh. Kalau tak nak pergi camna? hehe ;p takut dan risauuuuuuuuu