friends?

kenapa aku sering malang bile berkawan?
aku pon xtaw. i always be a fwen who never forget to wish my friend's birthday.. and even give them present on their big day.. and i always be the one who is being forgotten by her so-called friends... i might not get simple birthday wishes let alone a present!! wtf!!
i hate this kind of feeling.. am being so calculative. i believe in friendship we don't have to be that way.. but then.. there always be some limit.. i guess i beyond my limit now.. it has been more than 15years i went through all these. i cannot stand anymore!!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh